Deep Breath

I am notoriously bad at not finishing what I start. My personality is probably the biggest reason why. If you’re into astrology at all, I’m an Aries and we are well-known for being Starter Fiends.

I get bored easily. That’s one of the major reasons why I’m not currently a professional musician. I just never liked to practice, and not to toot my own horn (ha!), but I never really HAD to. I suppose if I had, things would be different now but ugh, so much work, haha.

Lately, though, I’ve been getting better at finishing things, if you don’t count knitting projects. I haven’t finished a knitting project in forever, and that sort of sucks but there are just too many other demands on my time/hands/brain at the moment. Plus, I’m really mad at the current project and until I can get over that, I am sort of stuck.

Late last year, I stated my goal to complete an Ironman before I turn 40. I have just over three years to get that done, and I’m confident that I will be able to do it. I’m frustrated at the moment because I am injured and I don’t yet know just how bad it is or what it will take to fix it. We find that out next Monday. But that Ironman goal is still a firm goal, and I am getting started FOR REAL next Monday.

The good thing is that there are lots of smaller goals that need to be achieved before that one comes on the horizon. Goal #1: fix the leg. Then start running.

In the spirit of smaller goals, I have decided to write something on this here blog every damn day. From Gillian’s Birthday 2012 to Gilligan’s Birthday 2013, I will write some kind of something here for the world (all three of you) to see. It might not always be interesting, and goodness knows it will probably be less coherent rather than more, but there will be something here. Every day. After I’ve had coffee.

I have a feeling that 2012 is going to be a challenging year for me. Maybe it will be challenging in a good way, but if the first 9 days are any indication, this is going to be tough. It’s already been tough to keep my head up, to keep going, to keep on keepin’ on. I’ve considered meditating, for fuck’s sake. Me! Meditating! Have you ever heard of anything so ridiculous?

I probably won’t start doing anything so crazy as that, but I am working hard to keep all my plates spinning. I hope I don’t neglect my own self in the process of taking care of everyone else. I find it hilarious that this happens, since I spent years being told how selfish and ungrateful I am. Looking at things objectively, I’m not selfish so much as self-centered (there’s a difference! I swear!), and as for ungrateful… I never understood where that came from, and only in recent years have I come to realize that the person saying these things to me is (and has been) completely batshit crazy, and anything he says should always be taken with a huge grain of salt and a good hard look at the source.

So there’s that.

As far as writing goals go, I don’t really have one besides the ‘write every day’ one. I don’t know what I’ll write about or where it will all go, but I will write. For me.

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