Unmotivated

We have come to the conclusion that I am going to have to figure out how to make some money. At its simplest, this means I will have to get a job. Ugh.

I know there are people who say “do what you love and the money will follow” but what I love and what I’m good at are not things that people will readily pay me to do. Such as raise my kid. Or play Tetris (actually, if you know of a way I can get paid to play Tetris, sign me up).

So I have to find some kind of paid activity. I have a webcam now, so perhaps I could set up a porn site or something? The downside to that is that there are only about 5 men and 2 women who want to see me naked and I don’t see any of them paying for the privilege. Hm.

Ideally, I want to work from home. This is mostly due to my desire to wear pajamas 24 hours a day, but also because if I’m working at home, I won’t have to send The Jillian to daycare. The prospect of doing so fills me with alarm. But yeah, the fact that I would have to shower EVERY day and get dressed in clothes that don’t have dancing monkeys on them would really bum me out.

I have started researching various types of at-home work, and the prospects look positive. My skills are more or less outstanding, but I need to work on marketing myself in such a way that I am attractive to potential employers.

Which means I need to fluff up my resume. Actually, I need to start from scratch because I can’t seem to find a copy of my resume on this computer and God knows I don’t have a hard copy anywhere. Hm. On the one hand, this sucks, because I will have to revisit my last few crappy jobs, remember what it is that I did at said crappy job, and come up with references from people who remember me yet do not hate me (that will be just as difficult as you think. I’ve never been terribly popular, nor have I ever cared about being popular. Sigh.). On the other hand, this is good, because I can do a total re-write and try to play up the various job functions at which I excel.

Also, if I’m working from home, I can demand FAR less money than I otherwise might have to. See, on top of making money to cover the household bills/savings shortfall, I would also have to make enough to cover daycare costs, which are criminally high. So if I have to actually leave the house, it will have to be for quite a bit of cash. But if I stay home, I can almost cut my salary demands in half, since I won’t have daycare costs, clothing costs (let’s face it, NOTHING from my previous life fits me at the moment), vodka ‘n’ Xanax costs (to reduce stress), et cetera.

I know I have to write my resume. I have to do it TODAY, since things are going to start moving extremely fast on the house front. So I have to kick my ass and just do it. I just can’t seem to make my body do what it needs to do to open up Word and write. I might have to resort to pen and paper, but I’m finding the pen extremely heavy today.

Of course, now that I have something I absolutely MUST do, I have found sixteen other things that “urgently” need my attention. I never noticed how dusty the furnace vent thingy is, so that needs to be cleaned. Does it need to be done before I write my resume? No, of course not. But I wouldn’t bet on it staying dirty for long.