I am frustrated. My knee is straight-up busted, and because of that I haven’t done a whole lot of anything physical, and that is a problem and a half. It’s also the holiday season (or “cultural lie” season, if you hate Santa, and yes that is a much longer story than I am ready to tell at the moment), and winter is coming and blahblahblah EXCUSES!
It’s putting me off my schedule. Not a huge problem (yet), but I was planning the odd 5K here and there until the weather turns and longer runs are less painful. Right now I’m not running ANYWHERE because I simply cannot. I can’t even do my goofy version of race-walking because my knee will protest. It sucks.
The upside is that I finally broke down and made a doctor appointment to get this looked at. If I need to have surgery, I’d rather do it sooner than later so as not to push my goals back any farther. I have less than two years at this point, and since I’m basically starting from scratch, I am going to NEED all the time I can get. So, doctor appointments. Not until January, but I’ll take what I can get.
I’m just so mad and frustrated. I don’t want to damage my knee further, so I’ve been taking it easy. I should be focusing on my upper body, but I just can’t get motivated to do anything. It sucks. I need to fix it.